#4 and #5

4) Have weekly "meetings" with Joel about meal plans, workout plans, and finances

This one is pretty self-explanatory...yet we ahve failed miserably at it! LOL. I guess we will keep trying!

5) Help Joel meet his goals

This one has been a challenge for me so far...I don't know what to do to help him achieve his goals because it seems the only one he cares about is the money one....I know its not, but that is what it seems like. So I have let myself just kind of get in a slump and not even try to think of ways to help him...I need to get on this.

BTW
I did NOT work out last night. I did, however come up with a new strategy...On days that I don't plan on actually going to the gym and working out I am going to stop every hour on the hour during work and spend at least five minutes moving...wiggling, walking, dancing, just some sort of movement rather than sitting at my desk in front of my computer (like now, hehe). This I did twice yesterday, so at least that is something...

3) Lose 25 pounds

Now first things first, for those of you who know me, you know I am not a large person, so I'm sure you are looking at this thinking, "She doesn't have 25 pounds to lose!" But oh, you would be wrong. Don't get offended by this, I'm not trying to be rude. I have a valid goal and you have no right to be offended by it-it is after all, MY goal, not yours. I want to be at the last stable weight I was at when I was active in sports. In order to accomplish this I need to lose 25 pounds. Now, granted I may never reach this goal, however, I will be ok with this on only one condition and that is, my body fat percentage has to be back to down to where it was at that time (In other words, if I end up weighing more because muscle weighs more than fat I am ok with it ONLY if that is the real reason I don't weigh what I used to again).

On to the task!
I have committed to working out four times a week. These workouts will vary because, quite frankly, the gym bores me. However, they will always have both cardio and a little bit of weights (I will go down the line they have set up downstairs).
I am going to eat less at every meal and pay more attention to my body-I will stop eating when I start to feel full and I won't eat if I'm not hungry.
I am also going to continue eating small snacks in between meals to keep my metabolism going.
I am going to have written plans for the week so I can look forward to working out and plan on when I will be at the gym.
I am going to have small goals throughout the year so I can meet my goal (and I actually think I can meet this goal by July if I keep at it)

So far I have pretty much failed at this one...I have worked out a total of FOUR times since the year started. But two of those have been in the last week and I am planning on working out tonight so that will be three for this week! I think I am saying I didn't really start working on this goal until this week! :) Saves me from thinking I have failed before I even start...

Small goal number one: Lose five pounds by February 14th! (Yes, Valentines Day)I will let you know if I accomplish this or not.

2) Create an entire CD of my music-songs I write

This goal came about because in August one of my dreams came true...Evan Treu and I put one of my songs (that had a tune and a melody and an order and everything except actual music) to music. To the guitar actually. This was one of those moments when I knew I was doing something I was meant to do. Such an amazing feeling! It is because of this that I want to create an entire CD.
To accomplish this goal I need to do several things that are going to stretch me in ways I really don't want to be stretched right now. (Isn't that true of all stretching! LOL).
I will need to get over my fear of sharing what I write with others (especially Joel).
I will need to find someone who is willing to help me put my songs to music (right now I am thinking Kirk or Evan).
I will need to find someone willing to help me record these songs and put them on a CD.
I will need to write one new song or rework an old one every month.

Ultimately this is for my Mom right now, but it is also for me, and for Joel. I KNOW I am capable of doing this, but it is going to be a true challenge of who I am as a person. However, I know I will be better for having done so at the end of this journey. For anyone out there willing to help me meet this goal, I am more than open to the help!

2010

This blog was started because it was (and is) one of my five goals for 2010. Its not only a new year, but also a new decade, so I figured now is the time to make some real, lasting changes in my life. My five goals for 2010 are:

1) Start and maintain a blog
2) Create an entire CD of my music-songs I write
3) Lose 25 pounds
4) Have weekly "meetings" with Joel about meal plans, workout plans, and finances
5) Help Joel achieve his goals

Each one of these has several sub-points which I will go into one by one. For now I will start with number one: Start and maintain a blog.
I wanted to start a blog because I know I have valuable things to say, but I never say them. I have always had an easier time writing down how I feel about something or what I want to say to someone than verbally doing so. This is my way of thinking things through and sharing what is going on inside my head. It is my way of sharing what causes the hampster to start and stop running up there! LOL So far, I think I've done a pretty good job at blogging and I aim to keep it up. I like blogging because it doesn't have to be done every day. It can be done whenever I feel like it! :)
Until next time!

Home again home again jigedy jig

Being home again has reminded me how wonderful life is when I don't have to worry about anything...and then I am reminded that I DON'T have to worry about anything. What will worry do? Will it change the situation at all? Will worrying about my "To DO" list make the things on it get done any sooner? Will worrying make me a better person? Will worrying make me trust more or less? Why do I worry about anything? Worry changes nothing and steals my time. So, I have resolved to not worry. This is an endevor I definitaly cannot handle on my own. I will need incredible patience and honesty with myself when others (especially Joel) call me out on it. And yet, I am going to try...not by my strength, but by Yours Lord.
I will post some pictures of the trip at some point. It was a blast!

MEXICO!

I am going to Mexico for vacation tomorrow morning! I'm super-excited to spend a week away from all of the madness and maheem, but I'm also a little sad...

1) I have to leave my dog, Suga', here and the people taking care of her are leaving for two days when we will be gone...I'm a little concerned that she won't be taken care of for those two days. I know I shouldn't be, but I am.
2) I think I'm getting sick. My throat has hurt a LOT the last two mornings and my sinuses are reacking havok with my head and teeth.
3) I haven't lost any weight since the cruise, so I'm going to hate wearing a bikini just as much as last time... :(

However, I'm going to MEXICO! Where it will be warm and beautiful and just amazing! I can't wait to get there tomorrow! If only there was a way to make my sinuses behave!
I'm excited to spend time with just Brittni and Dustin and Joel. The four of us haven't spent time together without anyone else around in months! I'm also excited for Cozumel because we are going to rent scooters and go snorkeling all around the island! And I'm excited to just lay in the sun and relax. I'm going to finish reading my book that I have been working on for three months. I'm going to start doing the little things that show Joel I love him again. I'm going to be happy and have fun!
Until I am sad and back in the States,