YAY! I am SO excited to see him walk and watch his reaction to his first birthday party! :) And We are going to go swimming with him at the pool that his Daddy Nate has never been too. Can't beat all the Labor Day fun we always have in Iowa!
My Hubbin and I
Friday, August 27, 2010
E-man!
I get to see this little guy in exactly ONE week! The cute little stinker!
YAY! I am SO excited to see him walk and watch his reaction to his first birthday party! :) And We are going to go swimming with him at the pool that his Daddy Nate has never been too. Can't beat all the Labor Day fun we always have in Iowa!
YAY! I am SO excited to see him walk and watch his reaction to his first birthday party! :) And We are going to go swimming with him at the pool that his Daddy Nate has never been too. Can't beat all the Labor Day fun we always have in Iowa!
Tuesday, August 24, 2010
I have had an awful day.... I haven't been this angry in a very long time. Every time I think I get it under control it comes back full force, worse than before. I am so fed up with this company its not even funny. I am tried of the favoritism showed some people and the lack of understanding shown to others. I can't imagine how any of it could be made any better. There is no solution. There is no "quick fix." Yet, I am sick of dealing with it all. I want out in the worst way, but I know I can't leave. I know my leaving will do nothing to fix the issues. I know my saying something will do nothing to fix the issues. I am stuck between a rock and a hard place and it SUCKS!
It took me until lunch today to remember this song from AG in FoCo during high school. But when I did, it was exactly what i needed to hear. I keep going over the lyrics in my head knowing they are true, but not wanting to give it all over to Him yet....
God is bigger than the air I breathe
The world we'll leave
God will save the day and all will say
My glorious!
-"My Glorious" as sung by Delirious?
I know God is bigger than this situation, and I know He will save the day, its His timing I am not willing to trust.... How spoiled is that? I am holding onto this so tightly not because I don't trust God to take care of it and save the day, but because I don't want to have to WAIT for Him to do so. I'm such a baby sometimes.
Lord, I repent of this attitude right now. This situation is not my own to deal with. You are the only one who can make any sense out of it all. You are the only one who can make people understand their decisions. Come be Lord in this situation and make the outcome bring Glory and Honor to Yourself as well as good to those who love You. I am sick and tired of holding this inside, I want out, but not out of the situation, I want out of this anger and worry and concern and all-consuming hatred. Because if I am hating then I am not loving. And if I am not loving I am not serving You. I'm sorry for my attitude, Lord. Change my Heart O God, Make it ever true. Change my heart O God, make me more like You. In Jesus' Precious Name, Amen and Amen.
The above is the most transparent I have been on this blog. Writing is how I work things out in my head and in my heart. That is what this blog is about, not the situation, not the lack of answers, but the working out of something that is so incredibly frustrating to me....
It took me until lunch today to remember this song from AG in FoCo during high school. But when I did, it was exactly what i needed to hear. I keep going over the lyrics in my head knowing they are true, but not wanting to give it all over to Him yet....
God is bigger than the air I breathe
The world we'll leave
God will save the day and all will say
My glorious!
-"My Glorious" as sung by Delirious?
I know God is bigger than this situation, and I know He will save the day, its His timing I am not willing to trust.... How spoiled is that? I am holding onto this so tightly not because I don't trust God to take care of it and save the day, but because I don't want to have to WAIT for Him to do so. I'm such a baby sometimes.
Lord, I repent of this attitude right now. This situation is not my own to deal with. You are the only one who can make any sense out of it all. You are the only one who can make people understand their decisions. Come be Lord in this situation and make the outcome bring Glory and Honor to Yourself as well as good to those who love You. I am sick and tired of holding this inside, I want out, but not out of the situation, I want out of this anger and worry and concern and all-consuming hatred. Because if I am hating then I am not loving. And if I am not loving I am not serving You. I'm sorry for my attitude, Lord. Change my Heart O God, Make it ever true. Change my heart O God, make me more like You. In Jesus' Precious Name, Amen and Amen.
The above is the most transparent I have been on this blog. Writing is how I work things out in my head and in my heart. That is what this blog is about, not the situation, not the lack of answers, but the working out of something that is so incredibly frustrating to me....
Thursday, August 19, 2010
New SONG
I am writing a new song at the moment...ok, its done. I'm just putting the final touches on it!
I LOVE it when they just come out instead of me banging my head against a wall to write a song.
I am going to try to record it tonight along with two others.....IF I can get the mic to work with the computer tonight...last time it was not so fun!
Later on....
A few minutes after I posted this the power went off in the building and I lost the WHOLE SONG! As soon as the computer turned back on I tried my best to remember it, but there are two lines I just can't seem to remember. I guess I will keep trying until I do (or until I come up with something better!). Sad Day! :)
I LOVE it when they just come out instead of me banging my head against a wall to write a song.
I am going to try to record it tonight along with two others.....IF I can get the mic to work with the computer tonight...last time it was not so fun!
Later on....
A few minutes after I posted this the power went off in the building and I lost the WHOLE SONG! As soon as the computer turned back on I tried my best to remember it, but there are two lines I just can't seem to remember. I guess I will keep trying until I do (or until I come up with something better!). Sad Day! :)
Thursday, August 12, 2010
Moving Moving Moving
This one started crawling!
And this one walked TEN (shaky) steps all by himself yesterday!
I'm so proud of my nephew and niece!
And this one walked TEN (shaky) steps all by himself yesterday!
I'm so proud of my nephew and niece!
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
YETI
Tuesday
I get this super-cool looking microphone from UPS today (purchased last week from Amazon for a fraction of the normal price-if you want one buy it soon before the price goes back up).
I am excited to record lyrics to a song I finished quite awhile ago that I just can't get out of my head...maybe after I record them I will be able to sing a different song (or write a different song!). :) Yay! I will update this when I get it.
Wednesday
Got it! And took it out of the box...its HUGE! No wonder they call it a "Yeti!" I can kind of see the resemblance to the abominable snowman...LOL. I didn't use it last night, opting instead to pick all of the weeds out of the rocks on the side of our driveway and some of the weeds in the flower beds. Maybe tonight!
I get this super-cool looking microphone from UPS today (purchased last week from Amazon for a fraction of the normal price-if you want one buy it soon before the price goes back up).
I am excited to record lyrics to a song I finished quite awhile ago that I just can't get out of my head...maybe after I record them I will be able to sing a different song (or write a different song!). :) Yay! I will update this when I get it.
Wednesday
Got it! And took it out of the box...its HUGE! No wonder they call it a "Yeti!" I can kind of see the resemblance to the abominable snowman...LOL. I didn't use it last night, opting instead to pick all of the weeds out of the rocks on the side of our driveway and some of the weeds in the flower beds. Maybe tonight!
Monday, August 9, 2010
Mandi Hayen
Mandi and Misti are twins. They are alike in just as many ways as they are different. Mandi went home to be with the Lord and dance on streets of gold at the end of last week. This is just one more difference to add to the list. Now Mandi is there and Misti is here....
Please pray for Misti and her husband Jonas as well as the rest of Misti's family. This is a tragic loss, but one God will use for ultimate good. There is nothing else to say, Mandi is gone. While I know she is dancing and laughing and loving better than she has ever done before it breaks my heart to know Misti and Jonas and their family have to go through this. Pray they cling to the King.
Please pray for Misti and her husband Jonas as well as the rest of Misti's family. This is a tragic loss, but one God will use for ultimate good. There is nothing else to say, Mandi is gone. While I know she is dancing and laughing and loving better than she has ever done before it breaks my heart to know Misti and Jonas and their family have to go through this. Pray they cling to the King.
Thursday, August 5, 2010
Gone
D & B are gone.... They are in Okyland now. Ready to start new lives and experience new things and learn more than they could possibly retain.
My heart broke as we said goodbye on Tuesday night. We may have known each other only fifteen months, but we (the four of us) have been through so much, both together and separately, in those months that is makes it seem like a lifetime. I tried to be encouraging as they were leaving, but I couldn't do it. All I could do was cry at the incredible loss I felt. I then proceeded to feel guilty, I mean, they are following the Lord's leading. Moving to the great unknown because they both feel led to go to school at Rhema starting this fall. I know they are doing what they are supposed to be doing, and I know it is hard for them-I've been there.
I was the one who moved to North Dakota to go to school six years ago. That was me, which only makes it that much harder. I KNOW what they are going through, but I can do nothing to help them. I can say nothing that will make it easier for them. My memory fails me when I try to remember encouraging things that were said or done for me when I moved away. I think this side is more difficult to handle than theirs. After all, they are beginning a grand adventure and I just have to let life go on-either around me or as a part of it.
Enough sadness! I'm excited to start a new chapter in my life as well. A time to strengthen our marriage, a time to draw closer to the King, a time for a few changes. Please pray with me for D & B. D has a job interview tomorrow morning and B is beginning her job hunt.
My heart broke as we said goodbye on Tuesday night. We may have known each other only fifteen months, but we (the four of us) have been through so much, both together and separately, in those months that is makes it seem like a lifetime. I tried to be encouraging as they were leaving, but I couldn't do it. All I could do was cry at the incredible loss I felt. I then proceeded to feel guilty, I mean, they are following the Lord's leading. Moving to the great unknown because they both feel led to go to school at Rhema starting this fall. I know they are doing what they are supposed to be doing, and I know it is hard for them-I've been there.
I was the one who moved to North Dakota to go to school six years ago. That was me, which only makes it that much harder. I KNOW what they are going through, but I can do nothing to help them. I can say nothing that will make it easier for them. My memory fails me when I try to remember encouraging things that were said or done for me when I moved away. I think this side is more difficult to handle than theirs. After all, they are beginning a grand adventure and I just have to let life go on-either around me or as a part of it.
Enough sadness! I'm excited to start a new chapter in my life as well. A time to strengthen our marriage, a time to draw closer to the King, a time for a few changes. Please pray with me for D & B. D has a job interview tomorrow morning and B is beginning her job hunt.
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